| 10 days till I move to Switzerland! |
[20 Jan 2009|12:43pm] |
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Barack Obama become president today. I thought I should put that on my LJ, I'll probably like to look at it later on in life. Yay! Hope he can help pick this country up a little bit.
Oh, I just got back from Sarasota yesterday (I was visiting my dad) I really love that city, it's beautiful and has a lot to offer. It was very sad saying bye to my dad yesterday because this time I know I won't see him for at least a year. eek! I'm ready to have the time of my life, though.
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| elections make you feel refreshed |
[06 Nov 2008|03:16pm] |
I am very satisfied with the presidential election outcome. I think Obama will do great things for the U.S. But I won't get into politics on livejournal. haha.
I'm in Panama, it's so weird I don't remember ANYTHING! I love it, though and am excited to see everyone again.
REMINDER TO SELF- MAKE MULLED WINE THIS CHRISTMAS BREAK!!!! yuuummm
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| Ignorance |
[17 Oct 2008|01:20pm] |
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This is the reason people around the world hate Americans; this is what they see. These are some really ignorant and dispicable people.
I'm not trying to get any political point across, I just saw this on the news and was shocked about the way these adults acted. Seriously, if you're supporting a candidate don't give them this kind of publicity, it does nothing but create hatred and divide this country more than it already is. More than making Obama look bad, it makes North Americans look like morons. It really makes me sick to my stomach. IT'S 2008!!!!!
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| I hit the snooze about 10 times...no kidding |
[15 Oct 2008|08:41am] |
It's REALLY hard to get up when the weather outside is perfect for sleeping. It's raining so hard!!! It hasn't rained in the morning here for forever. It rains every day in the afternoon/evening. I must admit, I'm a little sick of the tropics...I don't even go to the beach anymore!
Anywho,
Food and Beverage Management exam today, then work. Yes, I work now. I'm a shop caller to hotels.
Wanna be a balla', shop calla'.
Ok I need coffee and eggs.
BYE!
Oh Ashley, you will enjoy this. I just read my LJ post on this day in 2005...check it out. Remember?!?! I laughed so hard.
http://randomassortmnt.livejournal.com/2005/10/15/
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| does this make me weak, sad and pathetic? yes. |
[04 Aug 2008|11:08pm] |
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This is a ride going nowhere
But somewhere that I despise
Going nowhere to end up with a tearful
I don't wanna go on with these pieces of paper
To keep me company in my old age.
I feel like I'm accepting it, yet not dealing. I can't do both, not right now. I don't think I'll be strong enough when I come home and something's telling me I don't need to be, it's ok to be weak and sad and pathetic. It's ok because he knows. We understand eachother.
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[27 Jul 2008|06:12am] |
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I wish a magic 8 ball could really tell you what to do.
I don't know what's hurting the most....the fact that we both know that the two of us love each other and want nothing more than to be together again but it's impossible; or the fact that I was only one month away from seeing him and we had all these plans together....pick up from the airport...dinners...breakfasts....my birthday.
I don't know what to do. This is the hardest moment I've had to live through so far and all I want is home, all I want are the people I love. The first people I called when I was crying my eyes out last night.
I knew it was coming sooner or later, he's only human and that thing between his legs doesn't help one bit. He's alone there. I'm alone here.
Distance and bad timing. These two things have taken away the person who has made me feel the most special, true and beautiful sentiment I have ever felt.
I have a lot of thinking to do but, is this a sign? Do I even believe in signs? Or is it just that I don't want to listen to this one? Or is it a sign to make a decision that I have been dragging out for a long time?
I want to think that everything will work itself out and that "what is mine will come back to me" or "time heals all," all those quotes I often hear about destiny and what not. But I really can't feel any more helpless and frustrated, and thinking those things just makes it worse. This feels too important to leave it up to destiny, something I don't even know if I believe in.
It fucking hurts. Mentally, physically and emotionally. It hurts everywhere. And eventhough we've been apart for 4 months and I've felt very lonely, I feel more alone than ever right now. He's radical in his decisions and I don't want this to end this way. Not through a microphone online.
I know that he's right and he's only doing what's best for the both of us, but it doesn't feel right. I can't lose him.
Everything was clear when I left, it was over, timing and distance made it impossible. But like he said, something of each other stayed in each other and there was this strong pull that I swear I could feel, pulling us back together to talk almost every week and to allow our feelings to grow even more. It's easy to be so happy with someone through a computer screen but I want to experience a real relationship with him. I want to see what happens. Even if it's 1 year 2,6, the rest of our lives. I just want the chance to experience that with him.
I feel awful. I just need to get home.
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| random food post |
[01 Jul 2008|11:05pm] |
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For my major I'm required to do a certain amount of "kitchen hours" and so I chose to be a chef's assistant for an advanced culinary class. I thought it'd be hell but I'm actually learning a lot while I wash the chef's dishes. He made a really yummy Tropical Salad and I came home and made it myself.....And took pictures of it because it actually came out alright. It's baby shrimp, green apple, pineapple and celery mixed with cream and salt then served wrapped with cucumber strands (which was a little hard to do) and with an amaaaaazingly good Red Wine Vinegar and sugar reduction. I only had frozen shrimp, not fresh and I didn't have a mold to serve it.... oh! and I didn't have all white plates so it doesn't look so fancy....and I kinda screwed up on the second little vinegar reduction line but it tasted very very good! You should try it if you're bored and like to cook. 
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[24 Jun 2008|12:57am] |
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I need to move forward. How the hell do I do that?
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| some company would be nice |
[18 Jun 2008|10:33pm] |
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Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
But I'll never let you go
If you promised not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
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| busy busy busy |
[09 Jun 2008|10:01am] |
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So..I move into my new apartment here in Costa Rica tomorrow. I have to pack....everything. I haven´t even started. wuh oh! It´s gonna be a looooong week.
I miss home.
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| this is a response to LAUREN´S entry for me |
[17 Apr 2008|04:53pm] |
Lolooo! I love that you´re talking to me through LJ, that´s really funny.
And wow...that is a hell of a guy, how freaking thoughtful of him. It makes me very happy for you but 350743543 times more depressed haha sorry...I´ve been sobbing around for the past couple of days, it´s ridiculous.
Anywho, I would like to see a full body shot bahaha not just the side of his head...and could you tell him to send some music to Costa Rica and also change my phone plan? Because I would love to talk to you on a daily basis. This time back has been awful, not just because of the boy but I just don´t feel like being here anymore´. I don´t feel challenged and I can´t do anything on my own because I live in the effing mountains and have no car. I´m getting an apartment May 15th, though! And it will be in town. finally.
I love you and I´m glad you have that connection with this guy, it´s the most amazing feeling, it is so indescribable...and if it keeps getting better, for the love of God, STAY IN TENNESSEE..there´s nothing worse than having to leave that feeling behind when you know it will be hard as hell to find that chemistry with someone else.
I MISS YOU!
As for the rest of you, I MISS YOU TOO!!!
I never write in here anymore...maybe I should. I will soon.
I´m gonna go see INCUBUS AND SMASHING PUMPKINS SATURDAAAAAY!!!!! YAAAAY!
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| i am a vampire |
[30 Dec 2007|03:53am] |
I got an intership at hotel icon in houston :) www.hotelicon.com ...it's awesome.
So that means, I'll be here until April! yay! I love Texas.
I'm gonna miss my boyfriend, though..a lot :(
I love Juno, I just watched it again, I laughed just as hard
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[21 Nov 2007|09:47pm] |
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my toe keeps cramping ever since i did a weird movement in dance tonight......what do i do?!?! my show is in a week and a half!!!
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| it's been way too long, journal |
[13 Nov 2007|09:29pm] |
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-I never feel like writing in here anymore.
+I do read your updates, though. They keep me closer to home.
+I'll be home december 22nd and I'm very excited.
-But I keep having dreams about getting there and none of you wanting to hang out with me haha. It's very depressing/scary.
++Emily's coming to visit November 30th!! I think that's the date, and if it's not, it's really close haha.
+My dance show is December 3rd.
-I'm too fat to wear one of the belly showing costumes so I went on a diet today.
+Thanksgiving is next week!
+I'm also going on a school trip next week, it shall be fun.
-I've come to realize I'm better off without any crushes and all that nonsense, it's all just a waste of time.
+An old friendship from here has really rekindled (sp?) I'm very happy about that.
++I heard the new Chris Walla today and I have a very strong feeling I'm going to love that album.
+Nono wrote me a really amazing e-mail.
-It made me cry.
-I want to have a 4353923574 hour conversation with Ashley but can't
+I love my best friend a whole lot.
++CONGRATS LOLO ON YOUR CALL BACKS!
-Lolo doesn't know Fossee...COME ON THEATER MAJOR!
+I LOOOOOOOOVE my marketing class...I'm thinking about it for my masters.
+It's almost time for Christmas music!!!!! YAYYY!!
-Where is my wonderful christmas mix cd??
ok that's enough.
I love you kids, take care.
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| dismantle. repair. |
[16 Aug 2007|07:09pm] |
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One last glance from a taxi cab
Images scar my mind
Four weeks've felt like years
Since your full attention was all mine
The night was young and so were we
Talked about life, God, death, and your family
Didn't want any promises,
Just my undivided honesty, and you said
Oh oh, things are gonna change now for the better
Oh oh, things are gonna change, oh, they're gonna change
I am the patron saint of lost causes
A fraction of who I once believed changed
only a matter of time
Opinions I would try and rewrite
If life had background music playing your song
I've got to be honest, I tried to escape you
But the orchestra plays on, and they sang
Oh oh, things are gonna change now for the better
Oh oh, things are gonna change
Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you
Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through
Dismantle me down (repair)
You dismantle me
You dismantle me
Give me time to prove
Prove I want the rest of yours (prelude)
Call this a prelude to a lifetime of you
It's not that I hang on every word
I hang myself on what you repeat
It's not that I keep hanging on
I'm never letting go
Save me from myself
Save me from myself
Help me save me from myself
Save me from myself
Oh oh, things are gonna change now for the better
Oh oh, things are gonna change
Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you
Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through
Dismantle me down (repair)
You dismantle me
You dismantle me
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